One week ago today, my brother silently passed away.
When I was made aware of this I knew my blog would lie silent.
But I felt I owed it to you, my friends, to let you know, so you would understand the silence.
I’m not sure I’m ready to get back in the saddle just yet, time will tell.
For those of you that are fairly new here, you may be unaware of my brother’s condition.
Some of you have asked.
I thought I would explain.
My brother was a diabetic, as was my mother. They both died due to complications of this silent, but horrible disease.
Alone, diabetes is manageable. But if left out of control, it causes so many other complications; organ function, blindness, circulation, just to name a few.
The disease is so hard to keep in check. Different things affect the levels of sugar and insulin in the body; food, infection, exercise….
The hardest thing to control is the amount of sugar you ingest.
I have watched, for many years, the control and lack thereof, the longing to live a normal life and enjoy the food that others can so easily consume.
I’ve seen how diabetes slowly robs one of their sight, my mother was blind.
How it can rob a person of the ability to get up and go about their daily tasks, my brother had both legs amputated (circulation ).
Because he was unable to walk, he was bedridden and too weak to turn himself from side to side for the last few months of his life, because of the damage to his heart.
This caused what we know as bedsores to develope, which can be very painful.
I was almost in constant prayer for relief of the pain my brother was suffering.
When he would get one thing healed another took its place.
His health has steadily deteriorated, and more rapidly in the last few months.
He was suffering mentally and physically, maybe mentally causing physically and visa versa.
I can only imagine the smile that came over his face when he realized he was walking again.
And I imagined just how he took off running when he saw the faces of those awaiting his arrival in Heaven.
Free at last!
From the handicap, the misery and the pain that had became his constant companion.
I will miss him.
And I’ll shed more tears than I have.
But I am thankful he is no longer suffering.
And now I want to say…….
Each and everyone of you!
For the prayers, thoughts, cards and support you have shown me this last week.
I will not forget the generous, heartfelt comments you have left here for me and my family.
I’m not too sure when I’ll be back to regular posting.
But I will be back to visiting you soon.
Becky @ Twisted Fencepost